temple dedication

Over the weekend the Draper Utah Temple held their temple dedications, twelve sessions in all. the last session was broadcast over closed circuit tv to all the stake centers in Utah, this was Sunday afternoon. We had ours at the Parley's stake center. We had to end our meetings short for that evening so we only had sacrament and priesthood. We then needed to leave while they prepared the building to serve as an extension to the temple dedication. So to enter we needed to have our temple recommends. It felt great being there, even more so when they started. I just read my scriptures until it started. I've been trying to finish my Book of Mormon in Cebuano and not quite there yet. but close. Scott green came and sat by me. he is leaving this next week to move to California. hope he does well there. The ceremony went great with a variety of speakers. and the dedication was very inspiring. It was given by president Monson. I remember the feeling of reverence as we all participated and during the final song, singing "The spirit of god" was just wonderful. I started tearing up and then pulled my voice back, i felt wrong for doing that. if anything i should have sung louder, but didn't want to make a scene. still, such a wonderful evening. I was able to go through the temple tour twice, but now, next time i go back. the Spirit of God will be there and The house will be Holy. I've got a few more names to finish for my family before i start up again, but i can't wait to go back. I was able to go to the Jordan river temple Friday night, and then again on Saturday evening to the Salt lake City Temple. I picked up the female names i had left there for them to do the endowments. they didn't do them, so i got them names and i've asked the family history committee to help me and they said they would. So i then went through an endowment session. I just went home afterwards as that morning i had run an 18 miler and was still recovering for the run. I feel better now. but will give me one more day to heal up. need to taper a bit for my half marathon next week. that morning was such a beautiful morning, first over the mountains the clouds had gathering into the swirl of reds that filled the sky in brilliant swaths of fire. it stopped me in my tracks during my run, farther along, the sky changed into a yellow brilliant light that got brighter and brighter, much like fire burns white hot, it just filled the mountain tops, as though God were there visiting and showing all who would look up that he was there. I'm so glad i run so early in the mornings, i would have otherwise missed such a beautiful sunrise. Sunday we had the priviledge of having the sister missionaries perform a musical number for sacrament. they were awesome, i'm glad we have such faithful sisters and they share their talents and their spirits with everything that they got. reminds me of my mission days, although no where as near as awesome as our sisters.
After speaking with my friends. i've come to realize, I need to move on. It's been a whole 2 months since i've had any communication with the girl. She has not written, called, texted, emailed, nothing to show any interest whatsoever. time to move on. I was so sure about this one. not just from what i felt, but from being with her and from my dreams. I dream alot of things, many of which come true. I've had glimpses of who i should marry over the past 20 years, but that is all glimpses, never her face or her name. just some object of her that i remember. her hair, our children, the place we would live, where we would be together downtown, then mix that with my patriarchal blessing. this girl fits like 95 percent of these things. the one wild card in all of this, happens to be her choice, i could never force her to get together with me, nor should anyone be forced. I did what i was supposed to do, and if she never opens the door, well, i can't do anything about that. that dream i had in january, was with her, I would knock and she would open the door, then i was able to see what things would be should we be together, but on the opposite side, i could see what would be should she choose not to. She will have a good life, build some beautiful things out of her life. But i've got to move on, i've got to keep living my life. perhaps God will bless me with new dreams, in fact i know that as i place my trust in my God, he will lead me on. i've had dreams of other girls, dreams telling me what life would be like with them, why it would or wouldn't work and so i know that somewhere down the line, i'll find someone that we match and we'll be able to go to the temple and be married for time and all eternity. the thing about my dreams, though they often come true, I should always approach them with trust in my Heavenly Father. they can change on occasion. As my circumstances have changed and as my faith has developed and i've grown, either i see more in my dreams or they become more profound. some dreams frighten me, for the things that will happen, others of the past serve to enlighten me and grant wisdom upon me. like my other spiritual gifts, they need fine tuning, but the source, i must always confirm the source, that it comes from God. this last one had so much detail so much symbolism, relating to the gospel. I knew it's source. still, one big thing i learned this weekend, that God has a plan for all of us, and what part i have in that plan, depends on my choices. so now, i choose to move on and need to move on, or i'll miss on something great. I remember a dream i had of woman made of stone, no matter what i did, she was stone, but even then, i tried to be close, but what affection does stone have, in my efforts i lost a really great girl, a true friend who i dearly loved, She's happy now, has her own family and serves to remind me that holding onto things that i should let go of, will have me miss other things along the way i really should pay attention to hope and not despair, for how can i see the world with my head constantly down, i must life my eyes and extend my gaze. I will put my trust and my faith in my God and keep moving forward.